gamerfrog237

Ah, I seem to miss everything these days. Just kind of floating along, minding my own business.
Which really is a good thing, considering there is a lot to do, and only a week to do it in.
But today was very productive indeed. Called several people, made a list and I DID finish all of it, which is a really really good thing (most of the time I don't even finish lists). Go organized Haley! Whoop, whoop!
School ends next week. Bard and a Banquet is next week....
I keep thinking what the heck I am going to do when everything is done?
Oh...right, Paint! Draw! Make Christmas gifts for people I loves. DANCE! Be happy THAT I DON'T HAVE TO DO MATH ANYMORE!!!
I can't wait for next semester. Astronomy, Introduction to Painting and Creative Writing: Screenwriting?!?!
Wow, I can barely contain my excitement!!!
But I should be going.
Tomorrow I carpool with my loverly Nick to teh U.F.V. and get to talk with Paula about my Degree. Should be exciting!

Can you imagine, for a moment, that the whole world suddenly changes?
I remember so many of those kinds of moments. Moments of happiness, sadness and gladness. Moments that make you laugh, make you cry, make you wish that others would not lie. Moments that please you, squeeze you...seize you into a complete lapse of memory.
Everything that had been leading up to this, everything that is now new; polished and shined...has been criticized.
As soon as I heard the news, I went onto the internet....do you know what I found?
Hateful words.
Racist slurs.
I can only hope, that if the future is to anew, and change can be made, then I think most people need to get past the fact that his skin isn't the same as a majority of others. I believe that he will bring change to a nation, no matter what the cost. It is about time America got it right. Go America. Go Obama. To the future.

Anyways, besides the turn on politics...which I really never talk about....
My cat Socks was taken to the S.P.C.A. She has had a problem with showing her emotions a little to literally....lets just say she was really pissed off. A lot...and apparently showed her shit to much.
The real reason is my mother was fed up with her anal retentive behavior. Socks has always been like this...if other animals invade her space, she gets all recluse and has purposeful accidents. I can only hope that she goes to a good home...because she really is a lovely cat. I'll miss her, but I know that it is for the best.

So, If I'm seemingly depressed when you see me next, you'll know why.

Well...I suppose I should be writing my Essay on Francisco Goya and Jacques-Louis David...but I really don't want to right now. I would rather talk with you dear reader.
These past few months have been to say in short: tremulous. Lots to do...so many wonderful people to see, but not enough time to see them all in. It doesn't seem far to say that I don't like this lifestyle where time is taken up by work, school work, more school work, art commissions, play practice, bills to pay....blah blah blah.
Normal life stuff.
I'm figuring out a few things along the way as well

1) I'm happy with who I am, and who I have become. I found a hand written journal at my dads house from 2002. When I was in grade 10. As I read some of the comments and quirky things that I wrote about when I was a naive teenager, I got to thinking about what really matters...family, friends, love, laughter. Right now, there isn't a happier place I would rather be in. Hell, I've been in happier, and I've been in worse, but to be honest....where I am right now is pretty grand.
I know once I say that, I'll jinx it or something, but I'm not entirely superstitious, so that is o.k.

2) That I actually love Nick. No, not the girly high school "I wove him, etc." Actually, with my whole heart and soul. He is an amazing person. He makes me laugh at myself when something terribly hilarious happens. He reassures me that I actually am the most beautiful woman he has ever known. He tells me every day that I look gorgeous that day. He loves the fact that I am so talented, and have a lot of passions and ambissions. He thanks me for being there for him when he needs it, through a lot of family shit. I can't even thank him enough for his kindess, compassion, warmth, love, hugs, and friendship. Above all, friendship. He will always be my friend first.

3) That with a little hard work, I can write a musical.

4) That moving on is the hardest thing to do with myself

5) Figuring out that the S.C.A. is another home for me, and I miss it so...but I shall return when the time is right. My sanity depends on it!!!

Still with so much stuff to figure out, I am moving ahead one step at a time. Soon, I will be done University...I call soon two years, by the way. And then, I can move on to bigger things. I can wait for this journey to end, and another to begin. I have all the patience in the world.

Thanks for reading :)

Well...actually, not the WHOLE thing....more of a scene from an act.
Anyways the point on the assignment was to create a character. And, this character is the---well, why don't you read it for yourself?

Absolutely...no where!
To be honest with anyone who reads my online journal here anymore...I just haven't really felt the urge to write anything down! For awhile there I was a paid subscriber and had lots of cool features, etc. Life just kind of took over after awhile. I really liked the idea that I could just type out what I am thinking, what I am feeling at any moment.
Its unfortunate to not be keeping up with this little journal on a semi-regular basis....but I want to let you all know, I read my friends journals every time I come on the computer --- which is actually a lot.
Just, no time to sit down and write.

Oh, hey, a revelation.
All of this is about to change.

At the University of the Fraser Valley (Gosh, I love saying that) I am taking a Creative Writing Course. As such, I feel very inspired just to sit down and write in any medium, whether it be paper or internets. I'm also taking an upper level Art History Course related to Romanticism (very fun ^__^) as well as an online course on Statistics. Yeah, you read that right...I can still do math, and I actually LIKE it.
So far, the second week is up, and the ball is rolling on all of my subjects.

Oh, something really kick as cool. I am using a laptop here to post this entry. Well, it isn't my laptop, but I am really liking it, and its handiness is useful....I am sure there may be some negotiations in the work *winks* right?? Oh yes, and I found internets...they were lying on the ground, and I am borrowing them for a short period of time *evil grins* Arrrr, its good to be a pirate!

I have a jeep cherokee, 1995...Black, leather interior..shitty sound system...but it gets me from point A to 2...so that is just fine by me!!!

Another thing that has come into my life, a loverly man by the name of Nick. All I can say at this time is that we are very much enjoying our time together, etc etc....being totally 14 :P

Anyways, it has been nice posting. Maybe I'll get around to it more often. Cheers all.

So, the college semester is over. High fives all around!
It was a very...influential semester. I learned a great many new things related to art, as well as history within the arts. Lots of life experiences as well...those seem to be happening a lot lately.
A great way to end my second year in university.
Now...two down, three or so more to go! Woohoo!

Not much has been happening within my private life. I suppose I could supply the reasoning behind this. It has been a couple of tremulous weeks before school ended.
The balancing act of school and work may have gotten to myself so much that I neglected everyone around me. Every day it seemed I couldn't see anyone, or for that matter no one wanted to see me. But, I got over that feeling very quickly for that damned 17 page paper I wrote for Modernism....bleck.

I also have the esteemed pleasure of working at Shell, which let me tell you I could rant about for a good long while...I'd rather not though. It can be exhausting enough when you work at a gas station, but to have it stick to your ribs when you leave so your left bitching about it a couple of days later leaves a sour taste in my mouth.
People are stupid. Srsly....stupid. To quote Erica: "80% of me solving the customers problems these days is saying pick up the yellow hand and not the red one."
That is unadulterated joy ladies and gents. Pure stupidity. I already knew that the human race has suffered its set backs...but maybe these customers would do us a favor and accidentally remove themselves from the gene pool.
http://www.darwinawards.com/
lolkthxbai.

I'm going to go and sleep before I have to work. I have this lingering chest congestion as well as stuffed nose. I sound like I have a pleasing baritone. Delectable!

Approx one week to go. The END is nigh.
April 8th is the target date.
Behold. Here is a list of the insanity that is my 5 courses.

- Finish a 3,500 word essay/term project on the Impressionist movement for Modernism
- Finish second half of project for Sculpture
- Finish painting series for Wed April 2nd Painting/Drawing Critique
- Etch zinc plate for Monday March 31st Print media
- Write an artist statement for projects in Painting and Drawing, Print Media, and Sculpture
- Write a 500 word essay on sculpture stuff I don't really care about
- Finish up remaining 4 Popular Culture Journal Entries
- Write exhibition report for Pop Culture Gallery show

Wish me a good dose of luck, perhaps an energy drink or two.

Jeez, I sure haven't been posting at all on here.
Why you ask my fellow reader? Well...let me just say, I have a fuckload of work to accomplish, and only two more weeks to do it in!

So a quick update, for those who are need of a little "haley-indulgence"

I now am an employee of Shell. Yes, thats right, I sell gas. Don't make any cracks *snickers* about it anymore than I have. Because, I certainly have made...many...already. Erica also works at shell with me. I have worked with her a couple of times, as well as a good majority of my other coworkers. As well as working alone, which seems to bring me back to the good ole days of opening at subway, when everything was good and quiet (to some extent...).

Like I said before, school is only a couple of weeks away to being completed. That means that I will be graduating from the Visual Arts Diploma, and starting on a Bachelor of Fine Arts. *Waves Big huge go me flag* Go me!  Three more years of...Academics...yay *waves smaller, this blows chunks flag*

Bradley has finally it the bucket. Poor guy. Oh if you didn't already know, this was my car. He served me well, and I was glad to have him apart of me, if only for a little while. I suppose I should save up to buy a car now, or something :/ But, I shall have to see what I can do for now!

FINALLY got my Terry Pratchett in the mail.
Bloody hell, it took Amazon 3 FUCKING MONTHS to ship the darn things...Cherie, they better be worth it....
--- I've read a couple of chapters of The Colour of Magic already...ok so your off the hook now Cherie....
It is Bloody brilliant!!

These past two years have been...very...memorable to say the least. I've learned a lot. Met many new people and forged stronger bonds that before. Wouldn't trade the experience for anything at all!
Hope you all are enjoying your lives and experiences.
May His noodly appendage touch all of your lives ^___^

These past couple of weeks...have been interesting. It feels as though I have evolved into a new sort of being.
My classes have been spectacular...my job search has been fruitless. My vehicle, currently dead. My love life as well. Perhaps that will change sometime in future, but, who knows right? Why really care about that sort of thing, when so many adventures await around the corner? A need to explore myself and the outside world is building within me.
I think when I am done school, I will go back to Europe.....that's my travel goal. If not Europe..then Asia, or Africa, or South America....You know what...why not a trip around the world? *laughs*
If you put your mind to it, you can do anything.

I've been here in my house for the past two days...because of the freaking snow....
*is going insane*
Not to mention, I'm stuck with my brother.
Ah, damn it, he can get pretty annoying...

But besides this current insanity...
So much more has been going down in my life at the moment. Some little tidbits include:
- Having the oppourtunity to get my car looked at and perhaps fixed for free ^__^
- Working on awesome art projects, and finding a sewing niche like making cute little creatures out of felt.
- Exploring options life has to offer in the career department...I think a nice User Interface Artist job would be awesome as a stepping stone towards becoming a kick ass Illustrator.

Well, thats mostly it for updates at the moment...

Hey everyone.
Just posting here quickly to let you guys know that school is going really great so far. I have all my project ideas set in motion, and everything with school life seems to be just puttering along nicely.
In my painting/drawing class we've been drawing from nude models, which have been a really spectacular help with everything to do with the figure. so far it's only been a male model, but heres hoping for a female next class!!
Oh and I have 3 gallery openings this semester!
Print Media - Sometime in January....kinda forget, its at the end of the month
Sculpture - Feb 14th - 12pm....as to not disturb anyones valentines day plans....at this point, I have none, so this is my plan for the day! ahaha!
Pop Culture - Mar17th

Can't wait to show the world my art!!! I hope whoever reads mah journal here can attend, it will be lots of fun ^____^

Already, I have TONS of stuff to accomplish. And I feel like I can't at all. I know that I have the capacity too, but I can't think straight it seems. Sure, I have ideas for all of my projects, but honestly, its going to be awhile before I stop thinking about Gordon
.
So, I've gone through all of my 5 classes already since yesterday and today. What a load of things to do this semester. At least in my studio classes the majority of them has a min of 2 projects and a max of 3. But, this also means I need to step up my game.

There is something to be said about being an art student. Sure, we don't have hours upon hours of academic homework (besides the hours and hours of Art History readings...blegh) to deal with...but the strain of having a time limit to CREATE art is the hardest part at the moment. So don't think art students "have it made" when it comes to university courses....its a lot of hard work and dedication for something that you love and enjoy!

On the S.C.A. side of my life, 12th night is on the weekend, and I will be attending that in some new digs. I'll be making a particolour cotehardie with perhaps tippets on the elbows. Man, I can't wait to start sewing tonight!

...then to never have loved at all.
Yesterday my long term relationship ended. Yes, I cried...and yes I will continue to do so for a little while.
Looking back on everything that happened last year, it was by far the best year of my life.
I couldn't have been more happier with him.
He made me a better person, and showed me what love really is....how love matters.
I still love him, but it was inevitable that we not be together any longer. We both have things we need to deal with...but in the long run this is for the better. I don't know if I could have spent my life with him. I guess I won't know at this point and juncture. But from what I can tell, it was really fucking amazing while it lasted.

I don't know if I can love anyone else right now or anytime soon. All I know is that I have the love of my friends and family to keep me going.
And, the love of him. I know that he still loves me, but, its just better this way.

I love you gordon, and always will.

But, besides my current pain and heartache..

Christmas was pretty great. I got to spend it with my family and with friends. I have 4 christmases!! Like, wow right??? My seasonal job was also pretty great, made some nice cash there! I'm glad that I was able to make some money to put towards college.

Yesterday I dropped off some resumes, and I think this week I shall do that same again...hopefully! I got some pleasant responses...but its hard to hire for something only in the new year....maybe I will get a phone call? I don't know.

I hope you all had a pleasant  new years!
cheers.

I hope everyone is having a spectacular holiday season.
I just got my last grade in from the schooling this semester.
Painting and Drawing: A-
Print Media: B
Sculpture: B-
Pop Culture: B-

Holy crap. I rock my world, honestly. I really did my best this semester, especially in Sculpture....that is the really first good grade that I've gotten in that course.
I am very impressed with myself this second year as well.
I think I am getting it now. Yeah, ok, it took me a year to finally realize this, but honestly....its really starting to sink in.

Heres to another two or three years of university! Bachelor of Fine Arts, here I come!!!!

Severe updates needed here folks....sorry bear with me. 
I haven't talked for awhile here, and I think it is needed.

Bard and a Banquet went over very well. Surprisingly well, as I was the autocrat and played 5 seperate people in the play. Note for next year...find a co-autocrat!! Johanna had agreed that I could co-autocrat with her for "The 13th Einar." 
Oh...yes, and I am co-autocratting Winter's Tounrey with Danika, and being a "go-to-person-for-help" for Lionsdale Champions....huh. I think I have caught the autocratting bug.
Damn you universe!
Also, must make new garb before 12th night. I will be doing the whole, look at me, I'm a japanese kuge! ho-damn it will be awesome!

Moving away from the SCA for a minute, lets talk about school. Now, it is almost over...I just have to finish my final essay (which is on The Simpsons!!), go to two classes for critiques on wednesday, and pick up my art on friday. All in all, it shouldn't be a hard week.

Ah yes, and I am also working now as well. I sell art, ceramics, stuffed animals....etc, at the cottonwood mall in the wack. I am working for the holidays for now, maybe I can convince my boss that he should keep me on for part-time work while I go to school.....*evil laughter* 

Hmmm.....let me see what else at the moment....ummm...
Ohhhh yes, Gordon. Well, I still love him of course!


 

So to detach myself from my studies for a little while and post about my adventure....
I bring you....

Random Yahoo IM conversations *cheesy flashback music*

with.....hotnakedman2005!!!

hotnakedman2005: hi
hotnakedman2005: asl
punk_gnomie: hello supposidly hot naked man
hotnakedman2005: hi
hotnakedman2005: how r u
punk_gnomie: how am I? I haven't been asked that...in ...such a long while
punk_gnomie: see....I live underground....
punk_gnomie: and, no one ever messages me *cries(
hotnakedman2005: hope u r still alive in underground
hotnakedman2005: dont losse ur heart i m here to im u
punk_gnomie: thank you *hugs*
hotnakedman2005: u got a mic
hotnakedman2005: ???
hotnakedman2005: there in underground >>>>>
hotnakedman2005:
punk_gnomie: *blink blink*
punk_gnomie: Mike?
hotnakedman2005: a headphone with spaker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hotnakedman2005: u have 1
hotnakedman2005: can we talk?????????????
punk_gnomie: we are talking silly billy!
hotnakedman2005: we r not talking , we r chatting
hotnakedman2005:
punk_gnomie: I think the last time I checked....we are talking with our fingerings....so we are fingering each other?
punk_gnomie: No...thats to vulgar

Oh...you silly hot naked man!

Okay, so... a lot has been happening lately. Mainly school its taking over everything. I have a total of 4 more projects that need to get started (two of the projects are seperate paintings!! *faints*) and many other things to do too!
Oh....Bard and a Banquet is getting ever closer. Its weird how just at the beginning of the year, I was told that I would be autocratting it! And now...look where I am!
- I'm dating a fantastic (well most of the time *winks*) man who loves me.
- I am autocratting the event in a month
- I will be playing four seperate people in the play (the fourth player, a messenger, the second grave digger, and Prince Fortinbras)
- Deciding on finishing my visual arts diploma and then continuing my studies for a Bachelor in Fine Arts! Wow!

Well...thats it I guess. Really it isn't so much just looking at it. But when you really have to get all of these things done, it gets pretty stressful.

Meh, thats life.

This evening I will be going to dance practice in my costume! And tomorrow, is halloween. I plan on spending time with people, and just generally hanging out, enjoying life.
Etc..

Below is the information for the event that I am autrocratting in the S.C.A.
Tell everyone you know!!!
Buy tickets from me!

Autocrat: Lady Komatsu no Ayame
Bard and a Banquet
Saturday, November 24th, 2006
Harrison Memorial Hall
290 Esplanade Avenue
Harrison Hot Springs, BC

      Murder and mystery is afoot in our fair shire! Join us as the Press Ganged Theatre Companie presents William Shakespeare's most famous work 'Hamlet' on November 24th, AS 42. With the tradition of Bard and a Banquet, a sumptuous feast will be prepared by Holly House. The event doors open at 3:30pm, and the play will begin at 4:30pm. After the Third Act, dinner shall be served. Please bring your appropriate feast gear. Alcoholic and non-alcohol beverages will be available for a nominal fee – proceeds will be donated where they will do the most good. Due to the nature of the play’s content, it is advised that guests be 13 or older.

The menu is as follows (may change before event):
- Breads
- Cheeses
- Pickles
- Soup
- Vegetables
- Beet salad
- Salmon
- Scandinavian Meatballs
- Meat Course (oh it will be delicious!)
- Gjetost (cheese) with sliced apples
- Finger desserts

Site Fee:

$12.00 per person. Children under 5 and babes-in-arms are free admittance. NMS will be in effect and collected on site. Tickets are available from Lady Komatsu no Ayame (Lady Yumi) she prefers if you email her, as her mundane schedule is very hectic.

Autocrat: Lady Komatsu no Ayame (mka Haley Smith) phone: 604-819-0093; email: haleylicious@gmail.com

For more information and updates closer to the event, please see the specified Bard and a Banquet topic on the Lionsdale Forums: http://www.lionsdale.com

Site Info:
Name: Harrison Memorial Hall
290 Esplanade Avenue
Harrison Hot Springs, BC

Directions:

From the east and west: Make your best way to Highway 1, take exit 135 and Agassiz-Rosedale Hwy/ Highway 9 toward Agassiz/Harrison Hot Springs. At the roundabout, take the 2nd exit onto Agassiz-Rosedale Hwy/Highway 9 N. Turn left at Agassiz-Rosedale Hwy/ Highway 9 and continue to follow Highway 9. Turn right to stay on Highway 9. Continue down Highway 9 until it becomes Hot Springs Ave, turn right at Esplanade Avenue. (You will see the lake from here, there is no more roads after this right turn) The hall will be on your right.

Ok, so basically when I got back from school here to Gordon's House....I started cleaning.....

The hell?

Well, I figure I will surprise him after he comes home from work. Its not completely ransacked with cleanliness, but its organized....more.
Haha. Honestly, its pretty nice.

But now I will make some food, work on my homework, and perhaps play some halo.

Cheers all.

I guess I should update for all you peoples that skim through your friends list, and read my posts about what is going on with my life.
So....here goes!

College: It has been quite swell. Lots of projects have been due, and I really think that I am doing a terrific job on all of them, etc. Only have 4 classes is wonderful, especially the classes that you like. Except for sculpture. No one should have to put up with Don's shit. But, I really have to point out that I am loving my pop culture class. A lot! It really is quite fun. Three hours just really seems to fly by when Phil is talking about the 20th century. He is really a very interesting prof.

Work: Not available at the moment. Call back later. I do have a job lined up when I am not in school though. Which will be keeping me busy I am sure. Which is, really a good thing ^______^

Gordon: ... is still Gordon. Loves for you hun!

S C A: This past week I didn't go to the practices at all, since I got sick at the event on the weekend. ( I am still sick T______T ) Bard and a Banquet seems to be going ok. I haven't really talked with Luther for awhile, I think I shall email him about the happenings and such. I made the site copy for the event (finally) and have a sort of worked out menu on the go. Which really does the trick ^_______^

Wow....thats really all there is in my life right now?


I suppose I could regale you all in my latest encounter....with KATERYN! Yes! I noticed that she was on the Lionsdale Forums, and I then messaged her on Yahoo Messenger...and we must have talked for almost and hour! Good times. I was talking with some of her friends that she was helping study. Her name is Yuka, she seemed very nice! Anna is right, japanese girls do giggle.... a lot.
We talked about what we were up to, what has been going on. I really miss her, hearing her voice was really cool : D  I basically haven't really communicated with her since she left!! Well....there was one email....but it was only one!
Jeez anna.....jeez.

Anyways, before my eyeballs start to crust over, or bleed....or perhaps a medley of both: I shall depart.
It was great to talk with you anna. If I don't go to the anna talking party (which is weird that I didn't get informed about that...oh well....there was a party here tonight man!) I talked to anna already, and thats the best thing that happened to me today!

Loves all around.
Oyasumi nasai.

p.s. - I was speaking a bit of japanese...and Yuka just kept laughing....gawd I hope that I didn't say anything that strung together weird words!